I am more than…

“A first and last name

the schools I’ve attended and the ones that I have not

the places I have traveled

the world that I have seen

the life I’ve tried to live

the love I’ve tried to give

a voice that goes unheard

a face in the crowded streets

the color of my eyes

the one who goes unseen

the shoes I wore today

the friend I should have been

the son I’ve tried to be

the career path I was expected to take

and anything I’ve ever hoped to be.”

What I AM… is a part of something much larger and more incredible than anything that I could ever comprehend as a human being. I am a part of this universe, observing itself through consciousness.  So no matter what happens during life, I know that it is insignificant in comparison to the macro-reality of my existence.  What I am… is so much more.



My words as of late have become very few.  There are certain times when I have a tendency to shut down and introvert my thoughts, idea’s and emotions.  This is certainly one of them.  Thankfully art is another form of communication. In essence, a language that is written from the  heart and speaks from soul-to-soul.

My whole life you’ve tried to fly.

You’ve tried and tried again.

With broken wings… I’ve watched you cry

It was my mistake

and never will I

ask you to fly again.


or more precious…


…than a mothers love.



Love 101

We are born pure, innocent and full of curiosity. Life is beautiful. Over the years we are then told what to believe & how we should act, what is acceptable & what is not.  If we are fortunate…we find a way to sort it all out & learn how to love ourselves & how to love others unconditional of THEISTIC BELIEF,race,ect.  Those that don’t figure it out continue to spread the ignorance/poison that separates the human race  & therefore continues contributing to the de-evolution of humanity.   Sometimes my patience grows thin.  Why?  Because enough is enough and I’ve seen enough people get hurt, alienated or looked down upon because someone has different views on God.  That’s one thing I respect about NYC.  The diversity leads itself to tolerance and understanding of one another’s beliefs.


Honestly,  I long for the day when we put to an end our religious neurosis.  The world is not flat.  This belief died hundreds of years ago and fortunately we were able to move forward despite the oppression of the church against those who believed otherwise.

It’s mind boggling how humans can make leaps and bounds technologically and are very accepting of these advancements, however we become extremely stubborn to evolve with our spirituality.

What are we so afraid of??  The same thing that keeps people trapped within the traditional systems of belief.  Fear of seperation from self Identity,  family, friends and the biggest fear of all.  Fear of hell (the ultimate tool to instill Fear into a mind that has any question or doubt to the validity of the religion)

If we really want to know God,  we seek truth without limitations, bias or fear.  It’s the most innocent  way to pursue Life and understand who we are.

One final thought…

Imagine that you were immortal and have lived thoughout the world over the last 200,ooo years.  From the beginning of Homo Sapien (wise or knowing man), think of all the popular religions that have dominated public opinion.  In order to keep your social standing or even YOUR OWN LIFE, you would have had to change religions an extreme number of times!

Conclusion…  Let Love be your guide, compassion be your strength.  Religion (self awareness) evolves just as technology does.

This is difficult for me to share because most people do not want to hear anything that questions there belief systems.  I understand why.  Its the same reason I refrain from sharing these ideas.  Excommunication and being shunned by loved ones.

Well… sometimes doing what is right doesn’t lead to the most favorable outcome (or make you the most popular kid on the block).  However it will liberate you.

-LOVE  (for there’s nothing greater or more life changing than this)

Only 22 min long and I promise it will be 22 min well spent 🙂


The Inner voice

“There are moments in your life when you must act even though you cannot carry your best friends with you.  The still small voice within you must always be the final arbiter when there is a conflict of duty”  – Mahatma Gandhi

Ask 100 people what is best for your life and you will most likely get back 100 different answers.  The answers come back from a variety of reasoning, motives and perspectives.  Sometimes we can be quick to let other’s influence us especially when it comes down to important decisions we struggle to make.  How easy is it to choose a path that is already laid out for us and approved by others.

The only problem is that the majority of advice we receive is conjured up by the limited perspective of the individual giving that advice (granted they have our best interest at heart) .    You will always be your best advisor.  Instead of looking around to others for answers, look within the depths of your existence, and listen to the consciousness that connects you with life.  It’s much easier to be decieved by others than for you to decieve yourself when searching within for what you know is right.


Come to the edge

“Come to the edge.
We might fall.
Come to the edge.
It’s too high!
And they came.
and he pushed.
and they flew.”

-Christopher Logue

We all need an unexpected push once in a while to overcome the fear based beliefs we sometimes allow to creep into our minds. As we go through life, it is easy for us to loose that curiosity to explore life, new idea’s and to believe in our abilities. The things we once dreamed of being or becoming can quickly be forgotten or robbed from us by the those who have lost that magic in believing that YOU ARE THE CREATOR OF YOUR OWN DESTINY.

Don’t allow yourself to get caught up in conformity by taking your focus off of what you want out of this life. Surround yourself more and more around other dreamers who have a vision for the same things you do. A community of like minded people can propel you along your way to greatness!

This week, keep your eye open for a person who needs to be reminded and encouraged that they still have the ability to step off that edge and fly!

much love,
-Ken (Hawke)

Change the world

Let’s not forget the fuller view of life.  How easy is it to get wrapped up into the insignificant daily distractions of this thing called “Life”.  It is so much more than the objects we work so hard to afford, the guy or girl we put so much effort into pursuing, or the social life we feel is so important to build and maintain.

Life is more than all those things.  The world has alot of good, but in many area’s it is lacking.  If you’ve let the rigors of everyday life distract you recently from the bigger things in life, let this clip be a tool to help you refocus those thoughts and energy.  Channel that creativity that exist within you to find new and exciting ways to bring about change for a better world.  Not just for you, but for the whole of all creation 🙂  Be that light!






Life by OLP

Just open up your heart
Just open up your mind


Oh, Life is waiting for you
So messed up, but we’re alive


How many days have you just slept away?
Is everybody high?
Is everyone afraid?

How many times has your faith slipped away?
Well, is anybody safe?
Does anybody pray?


How many times have you wished you were strong?
Have they ever seen your heart?
Have they ever seen your pain?

seek truth
                                                 (without fear of what you may find)

Oh, Life is waiting for you
So messed up, but we’ll survive



At about 5:50pm today I was watching CNN in the livingroom of my mothers home in Jamestown NY. All of a sudden a newsflash was announced that The King of Pop ‘Michael Jackson” had been found in a state of cardiac arrest and rushed to UCLA medical center in Los Angeles.
At that moment my heart sank as I thought back to all my CPR/defibulator training during my years of lifegaurding. From the information that was given at the time, I knew that the odds of him being revived were extremely low and I realized that my childhood hero was most likely deceased. It was just a matter of time before the media would recieve confirmation.
Although Michael Jackson might of turned into being one of the strangest public figures over the past 15 years, I will try to remember him as he was from a kid singing with his brothers songs such as (Never can say Goodbye and I’ll be there). Even more so, I will try to remember him as I saw him as a little kid in the 80’s. He was what every guy wanted to be like and who every girl wanted to be with.
I have been going through alot of my old childhood possessions this week while visiting my mom. Ironically, Yesterday I had found a Michael Jackson record player, Thriller record and stickers from the 80’s. I was so excited that I actually showed a few people the items. They brought back so many memories for me. Maybe that’s what is so hard about seeing someone like Michael Jackson pass away… All my memories of my childhood are linked to his music.   (On another note)   I am extremely saddened as I look back on all the psychological issues that had haunted him throughout his whole adult life.  At least now for him it is over.
In this moment, I pay respect to the man who shaped pop culture and music in a way that very few people have ever done before.  Farewell Michael Jackson.

When I think of Michael Jackson I will always remember him by this performance (whcih is also very inspirational).

Michael Jackson, You will be remembered.


Greetings to all,

    I am back on U.S soil and  in Western New York State at this current time.  As much as I wish I could express my experiences in Israel, there is no way to descibe the magic that I felt in the Negev dessert.  I’ve never experienced clarity of mind and insurmountable peace at such levels as I did in the Negev. 

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(In Israel, I spent countless hours lying down on this rock staring into the night sky)

 On the contrary, my time in the old city of Jerusalem had produced less than desirable thoughts and feelings about the “Holy City”  There is a phrase that has stuck in my head since my first arrival in Jerusalem.  “God has left the building.” These words still echo’s throughout my mind when pondering my time spent in the historical city.  This city which holds the foundation of many major religions over thousands of years did little more than remind me of how ignorant, disunitedand underlyingly divided humanity really is.  Jerusalem has been fought over for almost as long as modern man has existed;  Conquered and REconquered AT LEAST 44 times throughout it’s documented history.   Jews, Muslims and Christians conquering and killing innocent blood in the name of there religion (God).  I’ve lived most my life studying the word of the Christian Bible.  I will contest any person that tries to disqualify me from “knowing, living and walking in the truth of Divinity”.  I have lived my life the best I knew how from the example that Jesus laid before me.  I certaintly believe in the messege(LOVE) that Jesus lived and died for during his time on Earth, however I despise the ignorance and manipulation that religion brings and enthrawles apone the world.  That includes ALL RELIGIONS or societies that seperate themselves from the rest of humanity.

   I will tell you what I experienced in the dessert…

  It was completeness of Life.  In the simplicity I found clarity in understanding my core sense of being.  I could see and understand the beautiful symphony between Reason and Logic.  It was an enlightenment that caused me to leave Jerusalem early to volunteer 8 hrs a day under the intensity of the Israeli/Egyptian sun.  In servanthood I found humility and the understanding that “time”  controled or measured by a monetary system can only devalue the core elements of “Humanistic Life”  (as in the system of consumerism) 

I want to make a statement to eradicate any misunderstanding. I am not aethiestic.   However, as long as Humanity continues to entrust the fallacies of man to put God in a box and label it (this is what ALL religions do) , we will continue to stay divided and keep repeating history as a curse to our stupidity/stubbornness .  Man against man, husband agaist wife, brother against brother  
… Nation against Nation.

(below is a powerful messege delivered by Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.)


My Keys are turned in,  The remainder of my possession (mostly books, dvds, and cloths) are now in storage.  What is left is a backpack full of cloths  and a list of organic farms and hostels across Israel, Egypt and Jordan.  My home as of right now will be wherever I rest my head for the night.


Israel, I will see you shortly… 



Til next time, my dear friends and Loved ones.  I will keep you in my heart and I ask that you do the same for me 🙂 

be Love

Good evening, my friends. I have been reading some of Don Miguel Ruiz books over the last 2 years. Over the last couple days I’ve decided to revisit a book that I have come to completely respect. For those of you who take the time to read my blog and enjoy entering into my “minds eye”, here is an exerp from a book that has come from pure enlightenment of life and spirit. Be blessed!
“In your whole life nobody has ever abused you more than you have abused yourself. And the limit of your self-abuse is exactly the limit that you will tolerate from someone else. If someone abuses you a little more than you abuse yourself, you will probably walk away from that person. But if someone abuses you a little less than you abuse yourself, you will probably stay in the relationship and tolerate it endlessly.
If you abuse yourself very badly, you can even tolerate someone who beats you up, humiliaties you, and treats you like dirt. Why? Because in your belief system you say, { I deserve it. This person is doing me a favor by being with me. I’m not worthy of love and respect. I’m not good enough.”}
We have the need to be accepted and to be loved by others, but we cannot accept and love ourselves. The more self-love we have, the less we will experience self-abuse. Self-abuse comes from self-rejection, and self-rejection comes from having an image of what it means to be perfect and never measuring up to that ideal. Our image of perfection is the reason we reject ourselves; it is why we don’t accept ourselves the way we are, and why we don’t accept others the way they are.”

-The Four Agreements



My heart severally aches over some of the atrocities that are STILL (to this very day) taking place.   It’s easy to turn on a movie or grab a cappuccino at Starbucks and converse with our neighbors about the rigors of everyday life, all the while being completely ignorant/forgetful of the horrors occuring in our back yards, in our neighborhoods, AND ESPECIALLY IN DISTANT LANDS. 

I admire the courage and effort being put out by certain private organizations to take action against those who destroy and mame the life of innocence.  The right to not be slaughtered or raped (at grotest and unimaginable degrees) should not be decided through the hand of politics.  It must not be the choice of government to decide the fate of innocent lives.  The weak and innocent should not have to be at the mercy of derranged men.  It is the duty of those who are able to act, to intervien. We don’t have the right to be a passive observer, unless we desire the same fate for ourselves.  

We must take the injustice of an individual as a direct injustice to ourselves.  It is the responsibility of the strong to protect the weak.  Not to turn away. There is ALWAYS something we can do. There’s always a choice.

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“Do unto others as we would have done unto us”
*American International Militia*



Spiritual Truth

While much has been said and written about spiritual truth, it seems that few people have been empowered by the reality of the experience. This is clear from the two main clues that demonstrate the poverty of spirit in the world today.


First, there is an abundance of fear, evidenced by the amount of conflict and violence in our world. And secondly, everyone is searching, although they might not be consciously aware of this. Behind our consumption of the movie, the music and the exotic meal, behind our striving for position, power, pay and possession, behind our desire for attention, acceptance and approval… every human is searching for the three most important experiences of its existence: love in our relationships, happiness in everyday experience, and peace in our fluctuating and peace less natures.

But the search is almost entirely externalized, which is why most of us miss the spiritual paradox of our times- we already have what we seek. When we experience ourselves as we really are… soul not body, spirit not matter… we wake up to our innate spiritual qualities. Love, happiness, and peace never leave us; we leave them when we lose our awareness of our own spiritual identity. These qualities of spirit are the source of all real wealth and true joy, and they are the greatest gifts we can give to each other.

author: love

(This promotes peace and understanding, so please dont miss the point by turning it off early)

“Truth is the only safe ground to stand upon”  -Elizabeth Cady Stanton

Love and blessings,

Ken (Hawke)


My mind is my best friend and worst enemy. Some days I feel blessed beyond belief. Life seems so clear, I live in a state of ecstacy where I couldnt feel any better about being alive. It’s during these times that I enter different stages of enlightenment and I see clearly the answers to so many philosophical questions in life. Then the next day, I feel like im in hell. Everything in life seems meaningless. I loose hope in humanity. Also, my thoughts get extremely congested during these times and even worse, my memory becomes almost non-existent.

Im starting to wonder if my endocrine system has been out of balance (not just recently, but my whole life!) My whole life has been filled with such extremes. I used to be a very emotional person, however I now hold alot of my emotions in check. That still doesnt mean that I DONT experience them. I’ve just learned to recognize them as emotions and not neccessarily reality.

The reason Im writting this is because it is who I am and Im learning that it’s ok to just be who we are 🙂 What’s interesting to me is this has been one of the greatest factors in shaping my personality, character and views in life. Part of me hates going through these extremes. However, just as with everything in life, there is always an opposite side of the spectrem which counterbalances in other ways. Just as a blind mans body comphensates for the loss of sight by increasing his sense of touch, smell and even hearing. My weakness has forced me to wake up and see the world in a whole different light. That’s why now… I would rather live to contribute to the evolution of humanity than live to build the dream of a twisted/artifically created dreamworld, which in reality, is just another form of slavery. I know that I was not instilled with life to keep building a corporate entity. I was given life to live, love, share and serve for the purpose of human evolution of mind, body and soul. I dont want to live another day as a slave to this societies dream. I want to help reshape that dream and give it more worth and meaning. That means, clearing away thousands of years of Relgions dogmas and ideologies. I want to see humanity come together and unite for one purpose. That purpose is to erase the “I” from existance. And replace it with “us” because as humanity is focused on the individual (selfishness) we will never get to our final destination. We will continue to wander through “the desert” of human existence trying to find the PROMISE LAND. It is vital that we make the agreement with ourself that WHAT IS BEST FOR THE WHOLE ENTITY IS (OVERALL) IN THE ABSOLUTE BEST INTEREST FOR EACH INDIVIDUAL.    In other words, “what is best for us, is in actuallity the BEST thing for me.” The word “us” meaning ALL of humanity, not just one race or country or gender or even intellect. 


 What’s just as important is that we stop treating the earth like its disposable. I am not a tree huger, yet I do see that we are so much more connected to EVERYTHING that exist. Ecology shows us that disrupting the balance of one eco-system has dramatic effects on everything else. We are part of the big picture, WE ARE NOT the big picture. A persons religious beliefs may conflict with this idea and thats ok because they are just that… beliefs. Just like the belief that the universe revolved around the Earth was just a belief. 400 years ago, anyone who confronted this idea was condemned by the church. Why?? Because we are so afraid of the unknown and the idea that our foundations of belief might have to change. Guess what? Change is the only thing in all of existence which is gaurrenteed! Knowing that change is inevitable, why are we so afraid of it? When we loose our fear of change of beliefs, change of carear, change of age, change of address, change of life, ect… Basically when we are no longer afraid to face change at any level, we will be free to experience the truth for whatever it may be. You’ll never feel more free or liberated in your life. It will open up a whole new dimension to what LOVE is because there is no influence of fear involved. Think about that.


BLESSINGS AND LOVE TO ALL WHO READ (whether you love me or hate)

I will live for truth,
my life and my purpose
will be one of meaning.
It’s value will not be measured in currency
but by beauty of Exploration!

-Ken (Hawke)

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Ken (Hawke)

The following is an exerpt of a teaching from J. Krishnamurti (1895-1986):

” What are the other factors that bring sorrow in human life? I want to love, I love you, and you don’t love me, and I want more love from you, I feel I must be loved by you. You are the only person who can love me, nobody else. I shut the door on everybody else except you. I will keep my door open to you. And you look the other way. Doesn’t this happen to all of you? And you spend your life in sorrow, bitterness, anger, jealousy, frustration, because you insist on going through one door! And you find that you are not loved. I don’t know if you have ever considered what a terrible thought it is that you are not loved. Isn’t it appalling to feel that you are not loved?
Have you ever noticed a flower on the wayside, the beauty, the color of it? It has a perfume, and it isn’t asking you to look at it, it isnt asking you to smell it—it is there. But we human beings have this mechanism of thought that says, ” I must be loved, I haven’t got enough love” or “I must love you.” So one of the factors of our sorrow is the sense of not being loved, isn’t it? And we demand that love be expressed in a certain way–sexually or in companionship, in friendship, platonically or physically. Which all indicates, doesn’t it, a human mind demanding to have a relationship with another based on its own urgency, which prevents love coming into being. As we have said, there is love only when there is the ending of sorrow. Love cannot exist within the circle, the field, of sorrow.”

Those that have a deep connection with me have one time or another heard my idea’s on “Love & Relationships”. I preach alot about infactuations,insecurities, and selfishness vs. Love. Im beginning to believe more and more that Love can be as mysterious and hard to comprehend as GOD is. This may require an alful lot of explaination, however it’s late and I don’t feel like getting into it right now. I just wanted to share the excerpt because maybe there is someone out there that might find it benefitial.


Ken (Hawke)


People are unreasonable, illogical and self-centered.
Love them anyway!
If you do good, people will accuse you
of selfish, ulterior motives.
Do good anyway!
If you are successful, you will win
false friends and enemies.
Succeed anyway!
The good you do will be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway!
Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.
Be honest and frank anyway!
What you spend years building may be
destroyed overnight.
Build anyway!
People really need help
but may attack you if you help them.
Help them anyway!
Give the world the best you have
and you’ll get kicked in the teeth.
Give the world the best you’ve got anyway!

Written by: Mother Teresa

Is this world that we have created REALLY worth sacrificing our lives for??  Are we truely happy with the never ending pursuit of success??  Is there ever a point in life when we truly feel like we can just sit and enjoy our creation?  When I step back and view our way of life, It looks as though we are constantly in a state of having to improve, achieve, and “get ahead”.  I feel like we are all worker ants gathering food for the winter, but when winter comes, we dont stop and enjoy what we have worked so hard for because there’s no time to enjoy it.  Instead we must keep working to gather more and more food (or in our society, more money(debt).  When and where is the enjoyment and the happieness that this system is supposed to create?  This system doesnt promote rest and enjoyment.  It promotes the idea that happieness comes with getting ahead and to keep getting ahead, we must spend more of our precious time and energy to get even FURTHER ahead.  The cycle goes on and on.   Why??  Because we have in our mind that work provides money; Money provides Freedom (in which) freedom will then give us that happieness.  Is that really how it works though?  at any level???  Seems to me that Work creates money which in exchange for freedom, people cash in there $$ for “objects of obsession” .   The more people make, the more people’s expenses go up.  Now why is this???  Because it’s drilled into our heads that we NEED “THINGS”  to fullfill those voids inside of us.    When this happens:

WORK creats MONEY which =DEBT  

And on and on the cycle continues and it will continue to be this way until people realize that their MONEY IS A TICKET TO FREEDOM.

OR……..  We can keep believing that BIGGER & NEWER is better and that THINGS are actually going to bring us a fullfilling life.

Let me share with you a secret to life.  SIMPLICITY can teach us all we need to know about how to live a fullfilling life.  Not a large house or a diamond watch or 700$ pair of prada shoes.  All that stuff does for us is surpress the underlying root of our insecurities which force us to buy that stuff in the first place.



Ken (Hawke)

It’s been a really rough week for me… Actually, it’s been a tough couple months for me. Today, I was walking down the street and I watched an older gentlemen trip then fall directly on his face. He actually went face first on the cement. He started to get up and then fell down again. He got up a second time. I walked over to him as he stood up. I noticed that he was extemely unstable as well as being shaken up and bleeding from his face. I asked him if he was ok. I remember him looking into my eyes and saying something, but it was mumbled.

Do you know what I did then???

I just stood there and felt numb. Instead my mind just thought of a million f&#^ed up things like, “Is he going to ask me for money??(and other thoughts that are completely ludacris” What the F*&#!!!! I don’t trust people anymore! I dont trust friends, lovers and especially strangers on the street. Why?? Because I’ve lost faith in people. Because it seems like nobody does what’s best for others anymore, it’s all selfishness!! Most people do whats best for themselves (especially in NYC) and It’s causing me to feel jaded and isolated from everyone. I dont want to be a part of the rat race any longer or a world that is only concerned with economic growth. It turns people into selfish demoralized animals.

I’m scared because I dont see the beauty in people that I once did. Even people that I’ve grown to love and trust in the last few years. I’m learning that they only have me in there life because I make them feel a certain way and if I didnt do that, they wouldn’t want anything to do with me.

I dont see much (true and genuine) LOVE in people anymore. I just see people that want something from me and if they cant get it from me, they will either keep pressing me to fullfill it or they will quickly move onto the next person that will fullfill their need or void. (and no, Im not just referring to sex.  It’s to WHATEVER that need or void is)

I definitly feel used up by alot of people.

Im not here to patch the worlds insecurities or to be used up by people who are a disease to this world. I dont support the common vision of a successful LIFE. This vision has created so much imbalance in this world due to greed and selfishness. With our overabondance and in our pursuit of the American Dream, we have created our own pain and suffering.
Love and blessings,

Ken (Hawke)

Hello again


“The art of living is so simple and so diffecult at the same time, however the secret to it all is found in the saying “I LOVE YOU

Unfortunately, the human being is weak and lacks will power, stability, unity and consciousness.  He is so weak that he is perpetually accosted by a multitude of desires, ambitions, hate, egotism, vanity and various passions which block the way to higher achievement.

All of these passional states form a real prison for the spirit as it becomes incapable of fully enjoying life in the body, and of expressing itself, its thoughs, desires and capabilities through this vehicle.  The emanation of God, is dragged down by the savage, animal-like and passionate material plane, where the actions committed go against the spirit’s desire for greater evolution.

      Rather than the body serving the spirit, the spirit has been obliged to serve the body, having been totally displaced and erased by the selfish desires of the body, which seeks those satisfations pertinent to its own condition.

     It is for this reason that the abuse of purely physical satisfactions such as drinking, eating and various sensual refinements, produces a tremendous internal dissatisfaction, which is the reaction of the spirit being forced to commit acts against its higher condition.”


    For those who follow my blog regularly, i appologize for the time I’ve been away.  I have spent little time on-line over the past month.  Instead, I have been focusing more on relationships with people and gearing up mentally for the what may lye ahead in my life.  I appreciate your emails and thoughts.  Thank you to all who continue to read this blog and continue to bless me with your love and support. 

be blessed, be love!

-Ken (Hawke)


For years I believed that “GOD” had a destiny for my life, however I was never able to figure out what that destiny was…


From the age of 5 yrs old, I can remember thinking about life and coming to the realization that it was not what it appeared to be…

zhighwaysunsetNow as a man, I am certain that life is NOTHING that it appears to be… This world we live in is no more than the dream and vision of individuals before us. We live in a dream world. Placed into the middle of a real life version of “Monopoly”, which has created (unfortunately) the “rat race” of life.

Instead of being able to fulfill our destinies (which happen to be very simple), we are forced to play the “Game of Life”. We spend all our time and energy contributing and sustaining this Dream world, so that we can use our money to magically create “Happiness”. Except now, most people have to spend most thier time and energy just to SURVIVE in this dreamworld… zbonzitreeIn this world that we have created, I realize that it never had to be this way. The more that life goes by, the more I realize that simplicity is what brings us back to the source of our creation. My destiny was never to be this person or that person, rich or poor, famous or unknown. My destiny was never to BE anything…. just to know and to realize who I am.

Be love-be blessed,

-Ken (Hawke)

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Bless the child!

While riding the subway today, I saw two young kids get on the train with (I believe to be) their nanny.  If you ever catch me in the city,  I GUARRENTEE YOU that I have my music playing on my ipod .  Every once in a while, I remind myself that listening to my music seperates me from the outside world (Which can be a good thing, but it can also cause me to miss out on some special things occuring all around me)  So when I saw these kids get on the subway, I thought I would take the headphones out of my ears and observe the young brother and sister.

I listened to the little girl tell the nanny about something she did in school today and afterwards the boy was whispering something into the nannies ear so that his sister couldnt hear him.  Whatever the boy was saying, was causing the young nanny to smile and giggle.  The boy then smiled back at her.  I’m not exactly sure what the kids were saying, but I felt like I was witnessing something precious…  The voice of innocence.

I adore talking with children.  I reeaaaaalllly do!!  There is nothing more precious than the heart’s of little children.  Their hearts are beautiful! 

Just minutes earlier I was watching some of the mentally disturbed folks which happen to make up a decent percentage of New Yorkers…  I would observe the young children and then  look around at some of these adults and wonder how is it possible to go from something so sweet and innocent to  people with such uglieness, hatetred and loneliness….  I DO know why it happens, I guess it really doesnt matter WHY… The fact that it does happen is what saddens me.  What’s hard for me, is that I realize that EACH person I see in NYC who has gone (CRAZY,INSANE, ect…) and has lost all hope in life………………………… was at one time in there life an innocent child, just like the precious children I was observing earlier today.

I try to view life very possitive for the most part, however I do realize that (to alot of people out there) the world can be a very lonely and scary place…  😦  

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Love and blessings,

-Ken (Hawke)

   I heard a song today that came on the MUSIC CHOICE ADULT TOP 40 radio.  It was a song by Natalie Merchant of the 10,000 maniacs (before her solo carear)  I find it strange that songs which I never paid much attention to growing up, seem to bring back the most memories and sense of nastalgic euphoria.   Maybe this song brings me back so much because Natalie Merchant and her band were formed at the community college in my hometown of Jamestown, NY.  So obviously this music was popular in my area.

WOW…  while writing this, I just remembered something that had slipped my mind which i havent thought about in years… In 7th grade (first day of Spanish class) the teacher gave out our textbooks for the year.  These books were OBVIOUSLY worn out.  I was the 8th or 9th student to had used the book.  (so if i seem poorly educated to you, at least you now have an idea as to why) lol :’)

Anyway,  back to this boring story…  I opened the back cover of my book and was reading the names of the students who had owned this book before me.  Wouldn’t you know… The second student to had owned my spanish book was future Diva, Natalie Merchant. 

It didnt mean much to me then (and still, it really doesnt mean a whole lot to me now), however it does happen to be a memory of mine and watching this video just happened to bring that into my mind.

I listen to this song now and I think about how much fun it was to have friendships(relationships)  in school and to enjoy all the things that make being a kid so special.  THis song also makes me NOW think about these days and experiences in NYC. 


These are the days
These are days you’ll remember
Never before and never since, I promise
Will the whole world be warm as this
And as you feel it,
You’ll know it’s true
That you are blessed and lucky
It’s true that you
Are touched by something
That will grow and bloom in you

These are days that you’ll remember
When May is rushing over you
With desire to be part of the miracles
You see in every hour
You’ll know it’s true
That you are blessed and lucky
It’s true that you are touched
By something that will grow and bloom in you

These are days
These are the days you might fill
With laughter until you break
These days you might feel
A shaft of light
Make its way across your face
And when you do
Then you’ll know how it was meant to be
See the signs and know their meaning
It’s true
Then you’ll know how it was meant to be
Hear the signs and know they’re speaking
To you

Love and blessings,

Ken (Hawke)

(send comments to kenbeersnyc@gmail.com or write comment’s below)

God Moment

I want to have a “God” moment with you…

Imagine that on the day you were born, your parents gave birth to an amazingly beautiful child. You were their pride and joy and the LOVE that they felt for you was no less than the Love that GOD has for each one of us. Over the next few years you learn what it is to communicate and love through language and gesture. The people in your town help raise you with the wisdom and knowledge that was pasted down to them from their parents and grandparents. You consider yourself blessed because you realized that from the time you were born up until now you were loved. You realize that not every kid is fortunate enough to be loved as you did. Not only were you showed love and how to be a righteous person, but your friends and family showed you what it was like to LOVE GOD and how GOD loves us.
Years go bye. Finally your out of school, your not under your parents control. You are your own person and finally in your life you start asking questions about your existence. You start questioning your upbringing. When you try to rationalize your beliefs, all of a sudden they dont seem to make sence to you. You start learning about other religions and next thing you know… you think that maybe you should try out a different path . Your parents and many people whom you’ve shared the same faith with no longer see eye to eye with you. Before long, alot of your old friends that you once shared a love with, no longer hold you by that Godly brotherhood or sisterhood.

Should you hang onto your faith and pray that God makes you a stronger believer and that he increases your faith?? There is also another option by the way… You can start learning and studying other religions that are very popular in other parts of the world.

Please turn away from the computer right now and think about this for a few minutes. Have a moment with God. After pondering this for a few moments, please continue
Thank you for taking the interest and time in reading this. I hope that you are ready to continue. Did you have your moment with GOD yet???? If so, please continue. If not, you have chosen to miss out on a divine moment
Here is what you need to know. These were the facts that you were not given until now.

Fact #1. You were born and raised in Punjab Pakistan. Country population 165 Million made up of men women and innocent children.
Fact #2. You were born and raised by very loving parents who raised you under a genuine LOVING Islamic belief system. (97% of your country practice Islamic teaching).
Fact #3 The religion you were contemplating as you got older in Pakistan just happened to be Christianity


How do you feel???? What did you experience when you read that your faith was” ISLAM” and not “Chistianity”??? WHen you look at someone on the street who grew up in a different RELIGION or CULTURE as yours, do you ever think to yourself, JUST MAYBE… God is “within” them as well as you?? What do you think you really know about life????

This is a true story actually and it happens everyday, in every country, in every town and in all the thousands of religions that have ever existed.

I wrote this story because it is something that has been in my mind for almost 10 years now. I understand that it brings up ideas that alot of people seldom like to think about, however wouldnt it be nice to stop looking at people as …

Christianity: 2.1 billion

Islam: 1.5 billion

Secular/Nonreligious/Agnostic/Atheist: 1.1 billion

Hinduism: 900 million

Chinese traditional religion: 394 million

Buddhism: 376 million

primal-indigenous: 300 million

African Traditional & Diasporic: 100 million

Sikhism: 23 million

Juche: 19 million

Spiritism: 15 million

Judaism: 14 million

Baha’i: 7 million

Jainism: 4.2 million

Shinto: 4 million

Cao Dai: 4 million

Zoroastrianism: 2.6 million

Tenrikyo: 2 million

Neo-Paganism: 1 million

Unitarian-Universalism: 800 thousand

Rastafarianism: 600 thousand

Scientology: 500 thousand

I want you to know that your life is bigger and more important than our social, cultural and religious ideologies. There have been many GODLY people in this world who have shaken the world. Seems like their messege’s have been somewhat similar to each other. We can spend our whole lives playing games and choosing to follow in the steps of what has divided us for thousands of years or we can choose to step up to the plate and start looking at people in a different way. Hopefully we can also let go of some of our own belief systems in order to step into the light of truth. If you want to know how to LOVE, follow the road of truth. How do we know what truth is?? I mean… there have been sooooooo many who have claimed to know the truth.


when we are children, we are born perfect. We are made beautiful. We are unprogrammed to any lies or deciet. We are who we are and we dont try to be anyone but ourselves. However as we experience life, we are made to feel that we are not good enough. We are shown what is beautiful. We are programmed and conditioned to think, act and feel certain ways. WE then base OUR REALITIES off of those experiences. Forming forever what is known as your BOX OF BELIEFS.

So here is my conclusion: To set yourself free from pain, hurt, lies, fear, lonelieness and learn how to walk in LOVE, JOY, PEACE, HAPPIENESS, PURPOSE, DESTINY, ONENESS and UNITY with yourself, others and most importantly GOD… all you have to do is this…

Look at that box of beliefs that you’ve held onto so closely your entire life and realize this one thing. 


Only then will you ever be able to find that truth that you’ve been seeking your whole life and NO-ONE will ever be able to misguide you again in your life because you NOW know the truth.

This was my GOD moment with you.  I live my life very simple.  I let LOVE be my mentor and guide.  I saw an article written that was labeled “Why do Religions Teach LOVE and yet cause so much war?”  My answer to that  I believe is because each and every person who has walked with GOD and helped to bring humanity closer to the being of God has been followed by people who have warped and minipulated the original messeges that were past down and EVENTUALLY written as “TRUTH”.

MAKE NO MISTAKE ABOUT IT!!!   Beauty exist in every person, yet few will ever figure out how to let the fullness of that beauty come out of their own existence.


forever be loved, forever be blessed,

Ken (Hawke)



“When I was a young man, I wanted to change the world.

I found it was difficult to change the world, so I tried to change my nation.

When I found I couldn’t change the nation, I began to focus on my town. I couldn’t change the town and as an older man, I tried to change my family.

Now, as an old man, I realize the only thing I can change is myself, and suddenly I realize that if long ago I had changed myself, I could have made an impact on my family. My family and I could have made an impact on our town. Their impact could have changed the nation and I could indeed have changed the world.”

-By Unknown Monk, 1100 A.D.

(one of the greatest songs ever by Janis Ian)

Let’s commit to ourselves to always sieze the day. Each day can be beautiful and memorable if we remind ourselves that it’s “NOW” that we live for and it’s “NOW” that will (tomorrow) be our memories.

love and blessings,
Ken (Hawke)

Nick Vujicic

A man who understands life, purpose, love for himself as well as love for humanity.

Its the pain/suffering we experience in life and how we decide to deal with it which ultimitly makes a person beautiful in every way.

love and blessings,
Ken (Hawke)

Thank you!


I am thankful for those who love me, simpy because of my mear existence in this world and not out of selfish desire. Forever be blessed those who hold my heart and yet allow my soul to be free… For those of you I have the up-most respect and share a love that is beyond understanding, a one-ness that makes me whole.

-Ken (Hawke)

יחי החיים

I was comming back to my apartment this afternoon when I came across a patch of Ice. just last week at this same area I had fell flat on my ass (haha) due to this area icing over. It tends to freeze very easly there for some reason. Anyway, after walking carefully past the spot I came across 2 ladies headed that direction. I normally keep to myself and dont converse with people on the street, but obviously I had to warn them of the ice, right? So i did and kept walking. Well another 100 feet down the road I came across a man of Indian discent. I was going to pass him thinking to myself “what am I going to do?? warn every person of a patch of ice the whole way home??” Of coarse not!
However, I felt a pulling inside of me to stop him and warn him of the ice.
“Thank you so much” he told me. “I actually fell down at the end of the other street because of an ice spot.” When he opened his mouth, I sensed a very gentle/humble spirit to the man. He had told me that he had just gotten back from a trip.

*Do you know that feeling when all of a sudden LIFE MAKES SENSE and you realize that…you are where you are, because you were destin to be there at that point in time?? Thats what I had with this gentlemen the moment he opened his mouth to say thank you! A divine moment

He had just got back from India. He is developing a Sports Action waterpark somewhere around Kerana. I felt compelled to share with him my vision of journeying across counrties such as Tibet, Isreal, New Zealand and even India as part of my spiritual pilgrimige. Without hesitation The man in his very gentle and humble voice told me that if my journeys ever venture to India that he would like to accommodate me with good hearted people to ensure safe travels during my stay in India.

The story gets even more interesting after that 🙂 (and I will share with those who inquire) however It is not important right now…

My reason for sharing this with you is because I want to make a point. Each and ever person you come into contact with in your life has a purpose and the ability to make a difference in your life. It could be something as simple as a smile that gives you a feeling of warmth or maybe it could be someone that could change your life forever! That person your walking past could be your next best friend. Maybe they are the person who will interduce you to your “soul mate”. Maybe that person you just walked past in 10 years from now could have been the God-Father to your children and would have watched over them when you are no longer here to do so. Maybe that person could change your life forever! you never know?? When you pass people on the street, realize that each person you walk by has the potential to change your life.

But also remember that you could be that “ONE PERSON” who could change the life of someone else forever! 🙂 and it all begins with a simple hello or watch your step! 😉 We have the ability to create whatever we choose to create in this life. Not just for ourselves but for those whom we come into contact with (whether we realize it or not, everything we do and say is effecting not just ourselves, but each person we come into contact with) One last thought…. Its not always big dramatic things we do that have the largest effect on people. Some of the most simplest/insignificant acts of kindness could be that one thing that sparks the fire in another person to change the world!

Love and blessings,
Ken (Hawke)

I don’t want to censor what I write, however I feel that a majority of my thoughts are too much for people and I’m not sure if most people understand where Im comming from. As much as I want to write about my life and thougths, i would rather provide words of inspiration and hope, right now…
I’ve realized that my purpose for having this blog should not be to let every person out there know the deepest area’s of my soul. (There’s just some things that I believe need to be shared between only you and the divine…)
Instead, my hope is that through these entries, someone might not so much lean about my life, but actually begin to realize who they are. Whatever that may be…

I Have Learned…

I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.

I’ve learned that no matter how much I care,
some people just don’t care back.

I’ve learned that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to,
doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.

I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust,
and only seconds to destroy it.

I’ve learned that it’s not what you have in your life
but who you have in your life that counts.

I’ve learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes.
After that, you’d better know something.

I’ve learned that you shouldn’t compare yourself to the best others can do
but to the best you can do.

I’ve learned that it’s not what happens to people that’s important.
It’s what they do about it.

I’ve learned that you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life.

I’ve learned that no matter how thin you slice it,
there are always two sides.

I’ve learned that it’s taking me a long time
to become the person I want to be.

I’ve learned that it’s a lot easier to react than it is to think.

I’ve learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you see them.

I’ve learned that you can keep going
long after you think you can’t.

I’ve learned that we are responsible for what we do,
no matter how we feel.

I’ve learned that either you control your attitude
or it controls you.

I’ve learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first,
the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

I’ve learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done
when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I’ve learned that learning to forgive takes practice.

I’ve learned that there are people who love you dearly,
but just don’t know how to show it.

I’ve learned that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I’ve learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing
and have the best time.

I’ve learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you
when you’re down will be the ones to help you get back up.

I’ve learned that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.

I’ve learned that true friendship continues to grow,
even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I’ve learned that maturity has more to do with
what types of experiences you’ve had
and what you’ve learned from them
and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.

I’ve learned that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish.
Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it.

I’ve learned that your family won’t always be there for you. |
It may seem funny, but people you aren’t related to
can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again.
Families aren’t biological.

I’ve learned that no matter how good a friend is,
they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I’ve learned that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I’ve learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken
the world doesn’t stop for your grief.

I’ve learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I’ve learned that sometimes when my friends fight,
I’m forced to choose sides even when I don’t want to.

I’ve learned that just because two people argue,
it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other.
And just because they don’t argue,
it doesn’t mean they do.

I’ve learned that sometimes you have to put the individual
ahead of their actions.

I’ve learned that we don’t have to change friends
if we understand that friends change.

I’ve learned that you shouldn’t be so eager to find out a secret.
It could change your life forever.

I’ve learned that two people can look at the exact same thing
and see something totally different.

I’ve learned that no matter how you try to protect your children,
they will eventually get hurt and you will hurt in the process.

I’ve learned that there are many ways of falling and staying in love.
I’ve learned that no matter the consequences,
those who are honest with themselves get farther in life.

I’ve learned that no matter how many friends you have,
if you are their pillar you will feel lonely and lost
at the times you need them most.

I’ve learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours
by people who don’t even know you.

I’ve learned that even when you think you have no more to give,
when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

I’ve learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains.

I’ve learned that the paradigm we live in is not all that is offered to us.

I’ve learned that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I’ve learned that the people you care most about in life
are taken from you too soon.

I’ve learned that although the word “love” can have many different meaning,
it loses value when overly used.

I’ve learned that it’s hard to determine where to draw the line |
between being nice and not hurting people’s feelings
and standing up for what you believe.

~ ?

Alot going on…

I will update ya’ll very soon. However, in the meantime… here is something for thought 🙂

much love and blessing, 🙂
Ken (Hawke)

The Thin Red Line


Where does it come from?

Who lit this flame in us??

No war can put it out… conquer it…

I was a prisoner

Love…  You set me free

We(humanity) were a family. 

Had to break up and come apart… so that now we’re turned agaist each other…  each standing in the others light. 

How did we loose the good that was given us…  Let it slip away… scattered, careless? 

What’s keeping us from reaching out… touching the glory?


Darkness and light…

strife and love…

are they the workings of one mind…  the features of the same face?


“O my soul… let me be in you now.

Look out through my eyes.

Look out at the things you’ve made…

all things shining.”

If we don’t really know what we want in life, it’s ok.  How could we??  From the time we are born we spend our whole life being told what we should want and what will make us happy. No wonder why we are so confused and conflicted

…Everyone runs around in life looking for a person to love when most of us haven’t even figured out yet how to love ourselves.

Those that talk about saving the world should just go ahead and do it!

Truth can either set a mind free of limitations and bondage or it can cause extreme psychological turmoil (which sadley, this may be the very reason why we are afraid to look outside the box of our faith/beliefs)

…Truth can be scary, however blind faith is insanity

… Something isnt right and the more I go through life, the more I realize that we’ve got it all wrong (Including our diluted/distorted views on GOD)

…God is love.  Let’s do ourselves a favor and not make it anymore complicated.  I can only imagine the MILLIONS of lives that would have been spared through the ages (and how many lives would be saved in the future) if we would wake up and realize who we are.

…I have nothing to gain by speaking my mind on Theological Ideologies, except the possibility of loosing friends.  So why would I do this???  Because of love…

…It is very wise to study in depth the differences between LOVE vs. Infactuation. Not just for your side of a relationship but for the other person as well.  Infactuation isnt always a physical obsession.  Someone could be infactuated with the way you make them feel, which also isn’t Love.

…Mankind (if we make it) will look back 1,000 years from now and wonder how we could have “missed the mark” so badly.  I can only hope that we will one day realize that the suffering of one is the suffering of us all.  There is no what’s best for “ME”.  Throughout history, those that have made the most positive impact for mankind, all had thier focus on the GOOD OF US ALL.  



Ken (Hawke)

“Hello??  Is there anybody out there? Just nod if you can hear me… Is there anyone home?” 🙂

It’s been 2,035 days since the last time I opened my heart on here.  Some of it has been due to the rapid development of social media (mostly Facebook), yet much of it had to do with self transformation and going through a season of closing myself off in certain ways.  I’m currently learning more and more about personal boundaries and re-evaluating them in all facets of my life.  I am also coming out of a “dark night” that has tested every fiber of my being.  I’ve pushed the envelope to the farthest of my limits and out of that, my foundations started to crack & crumble.  I ignored the “handwriting on the wall” and next thing I knew, life was out of control and I was all out of energy, motivation to continue or hope of any future.  In it’s place a few unwanted guest moved in.  Mostly fear, doubt, confusion, anxiety, depression and even an overwhelming sense of feeling physically and mentally paralyzed.

Now, some may wonder why I would be so open after expressing concern about personal boundaries.  Well… because honesty and transparency are just one facet of boundaries.  The reason why we as people hold back from honesty & transparency is due to the factors of vulnerability.  No one wants to be vulnerable (or especially feel as though we are).  To go even further, the main reason vulnerability creates such an internal conflict is because of the uncertainty which comes along with it.  Vulnerability can be used by another human being to manipulate another or it may be used to mis-judge or to be misunderstood.

There is however another part of vulnerability that is often overlooked due to the fear of our ego’s.  Vulnerability gives us the opportunity to accept who we are, to break down walls of insecurity and to develop into the deeper levels of self development.  However, our culture has a long way to go.  Billions of dollars are spent annually to promote the opposite of self acceptance and worth.  And for those who know me personally, I was part of that formula when I was involved in the modeling industry.  My intentions were good, yet my life conflicted with my ideologies. Just to be clear, I understand that many people are in positions of internal conflict due to the necessity of finances.  There is no judgement there, just a recognition that we often find ourselves in these places of conflict (some by choice) but most due to “survival”.

I believe that human beings all want to feel connected.  Even those of us who spend much of our time alone or secluded.  A good friend of mine in San Diego told me that she’s still in search of her “tribe” (yet is accepting that she may never find them). These are the people who connect with her at her deepest level of consciousness.  One’s who see past the smoke and mirrors of the superficial aspects of the world and can bond over Holistic living, balance, and harmony with our planet and our community.  Which I believe appeals to many people especially as we get older.  Yet, to find our “tribe” we must be vulnerable with the world and I guess that starts by being honest with ourselves first and then being free to be whole which will include the “good” the “bad” and everywhere in-between. Although the more I learn to stop perceiving  anything as strictly good or bad, the more clearly I can understand this world and my fellow man/woman.

Thank you for taking the time to read this and for those who continue to walk their own path yet share the same journey with me. (Especially those in the martial art community whom I’ve connected with over the years, the one’s who see the “complete picture” that it all comes down to self discovery and enhancement).  This same thing can be shared by yogi’s, dancers, (rock wall builders 😉 and artist of any kind really.  We all share some common threads and are more alike than most of us will ever be able to comprehend.